I am tired. Maybe because it is the end of a very long day. Maybe its because I stayed up too late last night reading a really good book and am paying for it today (my child didn’t get the memo to sleep later because mom stayed up too late). But maybe because there are lots of things weighing on my heart and mind tonight. If you were to ask me why I am tired, here is what I would say:
I am tired of finding out that people we love are struggling with cancer, depression, illnesses, etc. I am tired of always having to clean something, fix something, do something. I am tired of talking with friends who are heartbroken because their expectations were not met. I am tired of dealing with the unknowns of what will happen with Ed’s knee injury (doctor appointment tomorrow). I am tired of churches, ministries, christian groups trying to compete with each other – if we are doing and going after the same thing, lets do it together and stop all this competition mess – enough worrying about whose name may be getting the praise. I am tired of living in a free country but being told I can’t share my faith openly on college campuses. I am tired of disciplining my child day in and day out for the disobedience – I know this is what the Lord has for parents but come on, just listen already! I am tired of being tired.
I just wanna curl on the couch for days and read a few good fiction novels and watch a few good romantic movies. But that’s sin. Because I am turning to those things to give me rest and help me “check out” from the world, when Christ calls me to come to him for rest.
“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.” – Matt 11:28-30
So I will take my burdens to Christ in prayer. I will keep thanking him for all the things that He has done, that He has made, and that He has promised. I will thank him for all the blessings in my life, because they are numerous even when my feelings tell me otherwise. I will keep on keeping on. And I will continue to pray “Come quickly Jesus, Come.”